You see we had our first orientation morning this morning as Will is starting 'little school' one day a week... yep, *sniff, sniff* my baby is growing up!
I don't think there has ever been a child more ready to take his first steps into the big wide world as our little William. He is the most social, happy, active, adventure seeking little boy!
And I don't think there has ever been a mother more 'un-ready' as me to watch her baby become Mr Independent - *more sniff, sniffs*.
Just look at him, so happy playing, discovering, chatting in his babble to the other kids.I know this is just the next step in our lives together and it's the right step for both of us (don't ask me how I've managed to entertain him and run my business at the same time over the last few months because all I can say is that it's been hectic) But I think it's just a big thing to get my head around that my little baby isn't a baby anymore :(
And I am so lucky that I've been able to stay at home with him and spend all that wonderful time with him, I just always thought it would keep going like that forever you know?
I know I'm being silly.... it's just one day a week for crying out loud... you'd think he was going off to the army or something with the way I feel right now. But I guess a mother's love is a very big thing isn't it!
So anyway, enough of my blubbering!
Thanks for letting me vent about it and thank you for your lovely messages re real living yesterday.
Have a great day,
Bless Janette! Even though I'm not a mummy yet I know I'll be just like you because it's exactly how my mum used to be (she has distant Italian v emotional heritage) and still is!!
ReplyDeleteI know it must be really hard but it's great you've been at home for him through the most important time in his life. It passes so quickly! Parenthood as well as childhood is SO PRECIOUS! Cherish every moment xx
Janette, it's a credit to you that he's such a "social, happy, active, adventure seeking little boy"! Well done!
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing the gorgeous pics of your handsome boy!
It won't be long before you'll be loving your free day to get all your work done and spend some time doing what you enjoy. xx
Oh, darling girl! It is a really hard thing to do. Your life has revolved around Will since he was born and now he's learning to spend some time apart from you. I've been there - sending you a big Hobart ♥. The first week or so is hard but it will get better! You will really appreciate having your 'Janette' day. No doubt you'll be able to achieve more then so that on the other 6 days he's with you, you'll be able to devote your attention to him without being distracted by work. J x
ReplyDeleteIt's a huge step Janette, we are letting our babies out into the world! Also trusting others to care for them. I felt exactly the same as you with both my boys but they just thrived at kindy :) It is also a gift we are giving them, socialising, independence and following directions/routines from others. But just wait until you get those hugs and smiles at pick up time, melt your heart stuff xx
ReplyDeleteOh sweet, I hear you! I was the mum in the director's office, crying my heart out, when my eldest daughter started little school. And even now, I hope they never grow up and move out...but with daughter number one now nineteen, I know time is against me. He'll really love his time away, and so will you (eventually) and it will be great for both of you. But it does take a little getting used to, so be gentle with yourself and give it a little time for adjustment...and keep lots of tissues handy! K xx
ReplyDeleteIve just put Fern's name down for one day a week, too! Don't feel guilty, we totally deserve it!! Having said that, I know I'll bawl my eyes out the day it comes. Do let me know how he goes!!
ReplyDeleteOh, and I meant to add...don't waste your one day doing things that could be done when he's at home. Best advice I was ever given when my kids were young. xx
ReplyDeleteoh sweetie i know what your feeling..trust me i still cry now lol but you will eventually look forward to your Day and then you will also look forward to the little things that they come home with for you..it will melt your heart.its ok to feel this way..so sad they grow up so quickly, my Ayden is 9 next Friday:( i remember when he was off to kinder & i cried my eyes out now i cant wait for Lucas to go :)XX
ReplyDeleteOh, you're a funny one, aren't you :) It looks like he will have such a fun time and I'm sure after not too long you'll be fine with it. I'm not so great with change but I suppose it's inevitable. All will be well :)
ReplyDeleteThose first steps of independence are the toughest. It gets easier. And I really think the best gift you can give a child is that gift of learning independence, but always, always being there when they need it. I think you're a great mum with a terrific philosophy on raising Will. You'll both get a lot from this first exciting (for him) and scary (for you) experience! Take it all in, create great memories..and enjoy!
ReplyDeleteCry away Janette, we love them so much we just want them to be happy. Of course you miss him, he is such an enormous part of your life. You take as much time as you need and one day you will realize that although you miss him you are looking forward to a bit of time to yourself and it will get a bit easier. My suggestion is always a quick cuddle and a kiss at drop off then bolt for the car, drive round the corner, howl for a minute. Fix up your lippy and then hurrah Janette time! As for Will, I am sure he is having a ball and you have chosen lovely care for him.
ReplyDeleteOh I was the same with my big one. He was home with me until he was almost 3... dying to go to 'little school'. Once he went, I spent the days thinking about him incessantly and couldn't wait until 3pm to pick him up. He was most indignant when I arrived and told me most days to wait until after afternoon tea to pick him up. Be prepared for the bugs though.. I trained my boy to wash his hands 'like a doctor' (right up to the elbows!) in an attempt to keep him as well as I could out in the big wide world. Probably why he never gets sick now... big hand washers we are! Enjoy that one day! A-M xx
ReplyDeleteOh Janette, don't feel silly at all - I know I would feel exactly as you are feeling. I already feel a bit sad seeing my baby girl growing up so quickly :( Judging by the gorgeous photos above, I think Will is going to enjoy his time at 'little school' socialising and playing with all the other kiddies. He looks so grown up in that first pic :) xx
ReplyDeleteOh sweet Janette:( Don't beat yourself up about being upset, that is your right...you are Will's Mummy!! I was exactly the same with all three of our girls...Especially Lottie who was much younger when she started than the other two girls (thanks to my Uni workload...). I cried like a baby for the first few weeks when Lottie started her two days a week at daycare...but she is soooooooo happy there now and wakes up every morning asking if she is going to school that day. I think that Will is going to love it and once you can see that he will still need his Mummy and that he is happy and has the chance to socialise with other little people, you will be OK. Don't be hard on yourself... especially as you will continue to cry over something to do with Will...no matter how old he is ;) A Mummy's love is very special indeed. Huge hugs to you sweet girl and one for the very grown up Mr. Will ~ Txx
ReplyDeleteHughs been going for 1/2 a day for the last6 months.....I'm still not sure about it! I'm to much of a sook to graduate to a full day (although thinking about it now that baby #2 is on the way!)
ReplyDeleteoh my goodness thats exactly how i've been feeling, i have a grilfriend coming around some childcare centres in a few weeks, get him ready for next year.........he so needs the interaction with other children and mummy is the one who is gonna miss him, wow by the photos will looks well and truely ready in his element........let us know how you get on next week lisa xox
ReplyDeleteI completely understand. I felt the same when both of mine started at Creche. I thought it would be easier with the second but it wasn't. As soon I as I got out to the car I cried. It is difficult but now I have adjusted and enjoy my time and they both love Creche also. My daughter starts school next year so wonder if the same emotions will raise their head. All the best. G
ReplyDeleteOh janette it sounds like Will is going to love his day out, those first steps are always the hardest on us mums. My eldest is 17 & often asks when she will be aloud out of her cotton wool, LOL, its our job to protect them & want only good experiences in thier lives!
ReplyDeleteHis smiles will ease your woes!!
He will thrive on the independence and social side of things Janette, but don't worry he'll be so excited to see you at the end of the day, and to tell you all about it. And you'll have an amazing art collection by the looks of it. And give yourself a little time to adjust. Like you, I find myself saying that I don't want my little girls to grow up. But really I'm just afraid that they won't need me anymore. And that's just me being silly! xx
ReplyDeleteJanette he will always be your little baby no matter how old he is. Harper is 4 and still my babe!
ReplyDeleteOn the days that Harper doesn't go to Family Day Care she asks me if she can go... not sure how to take that one!!! She loves it and I can see how happy she is mixing with other children.
Hang tight, it will get easier.
Licks illy the cuddly xo